I feel like my season of uphoria (the season i mentioned in earlier posts (basically this whole summer) is coming to a end, actually more like it's crashing and burning right before my eyes. I haven't blogged in a while and i think it's because i'm empty. My brain has turn into mush and my heart to stone. Each day seems worse than the day before...everything that would seem to be good turns out bad. I don't mean to be so eeyore like (oh bother) but i really feel like my season of suckyness has only just begun. I'm old enough to know that life can not always be good (despite what those t shirts tell you). I'm chosing to place the blame on bush and the economy because well that's what everyone is doing, right?
On the bright side I do believe that God brings these seasons in our lives to bring us closer to him. I am feeling His pull (actually it's more like a swift kick in the ass) and am feeling a sense of urgency to brace myself for more bad to come.
oh man the funniest thing just happened. (yes i'm bipolar.) zaiah just brought in a butterfly on a stick to show me. i got a little scared because it was still moving but almost dead (like my soul j/k) well me being scared scared zaiah and she drops the butterfly into eli's lap who is sitting on my lap. we all scream which scares eli and starts histarically crying. i have to jump up and trap the butterfly in a cup to put him outside. it was really funny.
2 comments:
great pics jess... the kids look super cute. the summer was great wasn't it! i wish you could not work forever! way to use the blog as an outlet. i do pray that you can draw near to god in this season...
it never feels good to be kicked in the butt by God...i'm sorry (but then again, not sorry) that you're feeling this way jess. and i, too, pray that you find God in all of this. 'cause He really loves you...and He thinks you're an awesome mom. heck, he wouldn't have given you 3 kids if He didn't!
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